To have that clarity that I have long been looking for is amazing! It took me some years to get to this point and I will continue going forward. Things that are hidden will have light shed on them. I see the future me and she is a beautiful woman who knows what she want and knows that if she reaches deep down within she can pull out that strength to help her achieve all of her dreams. She is alone but as long as she knows who she is and she loves herself for 2, is she ever truly alone?
The Waning moon is used for banishing and rejecting those things that influence us in a negative way. Negative emotions, diseases, ailments, and bad habits can all be let go and special spells for clearing negative energies from the self, home, ritual circle, tools and so on can be performed at this time. Simply remember that when you remove an energy, you want to fill the void with a more positive energy. So this is also a good time to consecrate the future with what you want it to be as you move forward.
JOHN THE APOSTLE
PATRONAGES: He is invoked against poison. He is also the patron of art dealers, authors, bookbinders, booksellers, and burns. He is called upon for editors, engravers, friendships, lithographers, painters, papermakers, publishers and tanners. He is so invoked for theologians and writers.
With everything I just said in my first post I still wish the best for everyone in my family but I refuse to let my family drive me into the ground. I am actually happy because I know in June 2015 I will be officially moving and I really have no intentions on looking back. I can’t save those who don’t want to be saved and help those who are all for one and one for one=/ Makes no sense. I have let most of my friends go and my sister is the only one who I care for. I am done. Maybe then my money will get back on track as well as my sanity. I have been doing my shadow work. Really going within and discovering what it is that makes me happy and what I truly want in life and drama is not on the list.
This is the first blog entry I do and I hate it only because it is going to be so negative. I try to be the best me possible and love everyone but I now see that it is sometimes just best to stay to myself. This is the mood I am currently in so here we go.
My family sucks ass! Yeah they do. I am so tired of people around me who do not want anything for themselves and then want to tell you how to get where you want to go. Excuse me! You don’t have a road map for your life so how in the hell? When people see that you are trying to make changes for the better in your life they will do everything in their power to throw you off your A-game. I am beyond tired! You will miss me when I am gone and when I am finally gone don’t try to look me up I am unlisted and I don’t want to be found. I am falling so far off of your map.